Ok I want to keep this thread positive I am doing the homework I am working on my weight loss i have a long way to go.

I love my children spending time with them making them smile and be happy

I love my sister she has been so supportive she is fantastic

I love my mum she is getting older and I need to focus my time on helping her

I love my job helping others and I have a lot of good going for me

I am financially secure

I have nice cars but cars mean nothing

The one thing I do not have is my wife and I still do not quite understand how one person can hold so much power and control over me I am giving her this power and control.

So where I am at I feel like crap I want to be able to fix this

I want to be happy when I am in my own company.

I read posts here and i look at webpages and a lot of my time is taken up worrying today would have been our 17 year wedding anniversary

I want to volunteer at a local charity shop but when can I fit this into my schedule

I have to work three or four days a week and the other days I have to have my children when do I find the time to be in the shop

I want to work out have to find the time for this as well I want to do mornings and nights twice a day

I will become the best person I can be and I will do this for me and for my children

Ghost


Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.