Journaling... I can't freaking believe it but he frickin did it again!! Not only did he trash 15 months sobriety but he spent the night at A1 house last night!!!!! Unbelievable! I'm so angry and told him I can't do this anymore. He cried and said he did not want to lose me. He has a funny way of showing it. He told me about his night without any questions of promoting from me. First honesty in a long while. I just listened, validated, and told him he had to end it and I would have to be part of it. I'm shaking and near tears but at least I'm dealing with reality. He thanked me for looking after myself and working on my codependent stuff. He was not aware I was reading it, he just noticed stuff I was and wasn't doing. I guess they can pay attention.
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again
