Journaling... looking at accepting reality. It is what it is. He stayed out all night for whatever reason I'll likely not know. For the most part I was not affected by it but by four am I was getting anxious, upset and angry. I was calm when he got home. We had a chat and while I asked him questions it was a calm and reasonable chat. He then went to bed and I went out with friends for card games. He joined later and it was fun. After I went to a puppy class with a friend and he went home and was in bed when I got home.. I hope I have the strength to not pursue, to be quiet without coldness, gal my day away and let him stew in whatever mood or guilt or whatever. I've asked all the stuff that I will now and will work on my shortcomings of being overly attached and wishing for things to be different. Another day of mourning the dream.
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again
