The truth is, any one can get a BD at any moment, and they don't hurt less if you anticipate them, so the trick is to not ruin now by anticipating something that might not happen.
It's not easy, but it's a skill you can learn.
Hugs. Hang in there.
Maybe start a conversation about the show to distract yourself?
Me: 44 H: 44 Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10 Together/Married: 22 years H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16 H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16
