I think it's okay to grieve and cry. I don't think we'd be normal if we didn't. The MLC crazy train is a wild ride with lots of highs and lots of lows. The lows always bring with it the need to grieve and feel the "losses." But for me, those lows seem to bring growth and clarity. Clarity about the kind of person I am and the kind of person I want to be, and growth toward becoming that person. It sounds like you know exactly what I mean.
I like the idea of the water feature. There's something about the sound of water that is so soothing. I know bttrfly would agree.
Stay strong.
Tons of {{{HUGS}}} 2T
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013