Taking my first sip of the water

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So watched the black doors and also
Watched [censored] the fear and again

I have never pushed myself and my life has been about half measures

I am going to step up my diet and weight loss I want to start to feel good about myself body image has always been poor

More homework tomorrow

Had a tough day small brake down over the mess in the house and then my w had the decency to tell me that I am still not doing enough

I am doing enough I could never sustain the amount that she wants me to do so even if I change myself I just could not sustain the amount that she expects of me

Totally unrealistic expectations

Took my middle son out bowling had a lovley time

How do I shift from feeling just so lonley I miss her when she is at work and then when she is arround I cannot be close to her so I feel alone

Thank you for your help