What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[Coconut]

cbt, I don't know what us working it out would look like anymore. I miss what we had, but I really don't think I want her back right now.. But if she came to me one day and said I quite FF, I can't believe I did what I did, could you ever forgive me, I would probably feel different. But that's not going to happen.

Darkness, not saying that at all, in fact my communication with others has munched improved... Just so much anger with her, I don't even want to talk to her much less validate her feelings..