What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[Coconut]

ME:
My personal belief (not saying I'm right just what I think) is that the emotional connection (or possibly mid life crises) was already happening, he was perusing you and you loved the attention, which is why I noticed a difference in you.. Then when I started showing you attention you felt guilty because you saw that I could change and we could work things out, but you wanted the high you got from him and the firefighting... You didn't want to stop the high, so you pushed me away thinking I wouldn't go anywhere and escalated the affair to increase the high.

And I'm not the only one that saw you change, I believe others asked you about what was going on with you

WW:
You would love to think that I'm going through a mid-life crises, I know but it's just not true. A. I'm not at the mid-life crises age. B. I'm not evaluating my life or feeling like I have to be young again. I'm enjoying life, enjoying feeling healthy by exercising & taking care of myself which is something that I've always done.

It's pretty funny that you automatically act like I'm going through all these changes because I feel good about myself. I know that you haven't done any real activity in years & you wouldn't understand the feeling you get when you work out, see progress & feel good about yourself. No one has said anything to me about "Changes" they see in me. They've told you because everyone is trying come up with reasons for why we are going through this. Cousin 1 and Cousin 2 can say they see changes in me all they want but truth is they have hardly seen me in the last 6 months so they have no clue.

My reasons as I've stated before & have not changed for joining the FD are to be a good example for son, to do something good for my community, to give me something to focus on when Son leaves & to challenge myself. That's it. You and cousins aren't doctors so let's leave the diagnosis to the professionals & stop trying to act like your even remotely qualified to diagnose me.

WW:
Also, I do plan on speaking to a therapist soon but because I want to. I believe it'll help me deal with our situation & it'll be good for me.

ME:
So your BFF didn't ask you if there was someone at the station because u were acting weird

Or your mom didn't tell you she thought you might be going through a mid life crises

All before anyone knew about the affair

ME:
Ps look up mid life crises, you had your 40th bday (big deal to you) and you had a 35 year old friend die, call can be common causes

That was the last text... Only communication since was her asking me if I'm moving out before house sells when she saw me packing stuff up this morning. I just said "I'm not sure".