Anna 2.0

[Cherry]

I wish in the early days I had taken more time to listen to him. These are skills I have now, how to validate etc.

In a way, I see maybe we did everything too quick, we moved in together after 4/5 months. Maybe we should have taken some more time. But then all of this felt so right, and for the first 3 years or so, we were an absolute dream team. But if anything, I think we both became very codependent. We just were together 24/7, we relied on one another for everything.

I think my insecurity got to him after a while. He was always telling me to be more confident. Truth was, my ex before him was physically, mentally and sexually abussive. I would put on a confident act, but as anyone got to know me and I would relax into their company, maybe I was a bit more insecure. I've worked on this the last 2 years, I saw an ic to help me deal with past problems.

Although we had a great sex life, he will still tell me this now. I wish I let him know every single day how happy I was when he came home.