Very close to giving up

[Cherry]

I was trying to think what my potty mouth had written, so I went back and checked, must have been the word svcks!

Well so far, I guess I've had to start to detach. He wanted space and to be left alone, so I guess that's what's happened. I'm making sure that when we are both at home, I'm busy having fun with my S. I'm GALing more and seeing people. So far, I've just had to get on with things. I invited him to join me for a sonograph, I felt as father he should be there. But he hasn't got back to me if he will. I have no expectations here whatsoever, but if he decides against going, well there's a loss for him right there. How he will feel with me withdrawing myself away from him and getting on with my own thing I don't know. He doesn't join us for family meals anymore. So that's another loss on his part.

That's great that you've been spending time with your son. It's kind of selfish in a way, I've always thought a split with children is harder because they feel it too. But you know, I think they ease it in a way. My determination to carry on and be strong is mainly for my child. I know that wh isn't spending time with him or showing him much love right now. But I know for certain he knows he has his mama!! I'm a steady lighthouse for him too, I project calm and love towards him so he doesn't feel pain