The legal process is causing me so much pain right now it's crazy - every week there's another BD that makes me feel like my world is exploding. I have to let go of any possibility of reconciliation right now, it's just too painful to hold onto that hope.
I feel like a lot of my lashing out in my previous thread had to do with people advising me as if the main objective should be to preserve that possibility of R with my wife - and my feeling that I need to totally cut out all hope of reconciliation right now because hanging on like that is causing me so much heartache.
I didn't say that it would, I said that it could....
Hope is a fickle thing....
Shawshank Redemption ???
Kind of like that...
Work toward "you", and IF "us" happens ???
Then you cross that bridge...
As far as the hurt ?
Feel it, let it burn right through you. Use it for fuel to make it another day...
Use your anger as a shield, NOT as a sword...
The day that I hit MY rock bottom with this, I went outside and screamed at God to give me everything that he had, so that I would know my breaking point....
