Two bad rejections at work yesterday and an hour on the phone with my mother has left me deep in the dumps today. My Guy is traveling for work which triggers me from Mr. Fantastic in ways I haven't been able to explain to him (nor do I want to). My S10 is giving me huge heartburn -- He's SO forgetful and inattentive. Like, way beyond normal. Either I do well at work OR I do well at home but not both at once.
My Guy & I don't say ILY. I've come close to it sometimes, and I hint around it sometimes, but I don't get the feeling he wants to hear it. And he only tells me he likes me, or he likes me a whole lot, or if something is troubling me, he says he cares. Sunday he added that I'm a fantastic girlfriend. I want to rely on him more, but I don't know that it's safe or appropriate to until I hear something stronger from him.
Also I talked to my mom yesterday for an hour. She just digs all the time for the hurt spots, ranting about Mr. Fantastic and how awful he is. It makes things 100x harder when she dredges all that up. And when I try to talk about My Guy she brushes it off and doesn't ask any questions at all. She loves the drama. In the meantime I feel stuck in a box -- she doesn't want to connect with Maybell, she wants drama about The Divorced Daughter to report to her friends. And yesterday she even asked if I was doing ok for money! I was so offended.
In short, I'm having a rough day. I wish I could just go home and start my weekend.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
