Maybs - Pt3

[maybs]

I'm doing really well. Yesterday was a bit crazy. Had a super full day at work so of course that was the day my computer decided not to cooperate.

I also spoke with a place to get our mediation going and what we are looking at timeline wise to get that over with. I had to go to the court house to file my answer and counterclaim. Since the courthouse closes before I can leave work I left work a little early and then when I was done I went home and took a nap...and it was wonderful.

Then my W called me for an hour to talk about everything. I kept my answers short and distant, not because I'm even trying to DB her anymore but just because I have nothing to say to her. It seemed like she kept bringing things up to keep the conversation going. We were on the phone for like 45 minutes but we were talking about things we actually needed to discuss like splitting up certain things and our ideas about everything going into mediation. I also wanted to talk to her about our nieces, they are technically her brothers children but I have been in their lives since they were born and I told her I did not foresee a time when I wouldn't want to be in their lives and that I would like for her and I to get to a place where I can be at birthday parties and such.

And then she just kept trying to talk to me and ask me about my job (which she has not once asked me about since I started last month) and then she wanted to talk to me about missing the dogs and how she's struggling so much financially and blah blah blah. And I just got to a point where I told her I had to go just because I didn't want to hear it anymore.

I still feel really good about everything and I feel like each day that goes by kind of solidifies that I want this D as well. I'm happy with how my life is right now, I feel like everything is falling into place and I'm in a good space mentally and emotionally.

This is going to sound harsh but quite frankly I just feel like I don't care. I don't care what she's doing with her life, I didn't even realize it until after the phone call but not once did I ask her anything about her life or day or work or anything, everything she told me she offered up on her own. And I told her nothing about myself.