Another in a similar position here. Depression often seems like a common trigger. My wh has admitted to me that he has depressive thoughts and thoughts of self harm, but refuses to see a IC. Then he will deny it.. Then admit it.. Then deny it. I think you sense the pattern.
A few months back, while me and H were having a dark patch (no d had been mentioned at this point, and still in the same bed); we took a vacay. Although there is the pain of pretending to be a happy family. Just focus on the kids, that's what I did. I would tell h our plans for the day and gave him the option to join. And the majority m of the time he would join us, and even began to warm to me. I was upbeat, relaxed and genuinely enjoying time with my child.
Focus on you and the children. That's truly where it starts
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16