Welcome back. I wish it was under better circumstances.

You sound like you may be depressed. Does your if think so?

What can't you do much longer? What are you going to do to end it?

Best wishes. How is your son doing?

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together