I guess a private eye could do that. Also, wouldn't anything you don't need to know kill your hope?
I know the feeling all too well. Hang in there man.
- m and ww in 30s - s4 - m 11 yrs, t12 -ilybinilwy ~5/16 + request for OM - bd 7/16, confirm ea and strongly suspected pa - 9/16 ww claimed to have broken contact with om