To answer your question, no, I don't want to be divorced. However, the only way to save our marriage is for me to quit the fire department & give up something I love. It always comes back to that. I didn't want this. The situation has come to this.
You & Son were my world until you stopped being you. I don't really feel like I know who you are anymore. I realize you're hurt & I've thought long and hard about how I would act if the roles were reversed. I would be hurt & angry but I could never do or say some of the things that you've done & said to me over the last few months & specifically the last few weeks. I don't know how to get passed that.
You continue to act like I slept with him & you say the most hateful things to me. Things that will stay with me forever. At this point you are not the only one who would have a lot of forgiving to do & things to get passed. Do I want our family to be broken up, absolutely not but do I want to give up something that I've worked so hard for & live the rest of my life under a microscope in order to try to prove to you that I'm not doing anything wrong? I don't know that I can do that.
I definitely don't know how I feel about you right now. A part of me will always love you because you've been the great love of my life but I definitely don't like you right now.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
