Finally getting back to my BB buds! Been thinking about catching up and then my da^M internet ser/connection on the blitz....oh well.
Had a great time in NYC with Mom and Sis. Nice get-away. H came out the morning I left, early!!! 7am. We took a long walk, talked some...lightly, had breakfast, went to hit golf balls, and then he took me to the airport. All in all, a pleasant morning. He gave me a quick hug at the airport....I barely hugged backed and waved. (Was a bit qwkward)
He left me a VM the next morning to wish me a wonderful Mothers' Day...and said it was awkward saying good-bye yesterday. He was pleasant, tho on the VM.
I called him back the next day and left a quick VM, telling him everything was going well, and I had heard from both our kids. He called me right back, chatted a bit, told me about work travels, etc. Said he'd call me when I got home to coordinate our drive to get S at college.
Left all alone....had fun in NY....did the tourist stuff.
Got home late Thur night. H had left a VM. Asked me to call if it wasn't too late. I did. We planned our day the next day. I met him in the city, we drove his car to get son. We talked lightly most of the time. He brought up pieces of his personal search....said he has many regrets, and is sorting. Can't recall all the details. Picked up son, packed up car, had dinner and drove 3 hrs home. S asked many pointed questions about "US" H answered many with...."your Mom and I are working on things, communciating well, spending quality time together, when time allows....making progres." He asked me to add to the conv.....I agreed that the time apart has been very good for me....discovering things for myself...getting a clearer idea of what I want in my future.
All fairly vague stuff, but ok. H stayed around until about 11pm...did his laundry, watched TV.
H called Sat before his next trip to Seattle. He was chattly, planned to see our D on Sun after his meetings.
H called today, after time with D. Again, giving me details of time with D. Asked how we were doing. Said he would see us next week-end when he got back. Simple conv...but pleasant. He brought up my family reunion (that I didn't even ask him to go on...Memorial wk-end)...cuz I knew he would not be interested. He said he is thinking about going.....MAYBE....if it would be comfortable for me to have him. Asked about hotel arrangements, etc. I said....would not want him to go if he in any way felt obligated/pressured....S and I plan to go on our own. I said...whatever....to let me know a few days before. I am pretty sure he won't go...that is one of the things he complained about me in the past, was all the obligations with my extended family.
I HAVE to keep my expectations to ZERO, I know....I sense he is "INCHING" his way closer to me. Then, he pulls back some...and changes the subject or says well, gotta go. Think I might start calling him "Inchworm!"
I will remain busy, working on me....all areas.
Love having S home for the summer. Fun to have company in this home again....day in and day out.
Gotta a ton of catching up to do with all of you!!
