I have come a long way these last few weeks. I made the decision to see a psychologist and it has helped although I'm keeping an open mind as his views are a lot different to DB but I can see a lot of logic in it.
For me I'm 7 months separated the thought of moving on and seeing other people has been in my head BUT it's more just the idea in my head I am not ready to act on it yet. And that's not because I'm hanging on to hope my W comes back it's because I need to have myself well and truly sorted out and be totally comfortable on my own before I will try to bring anyone else into my life.
It is kind of exciting in a way, don't get me wrong I still very much love my W but I UNDERSTAND now and can see the big picture. Life is indeed short and right now she doesn't want me and that's ok. We are both on a journey and I hope it leads us back together but I know I will be ok if it doesn't. I will not have any part of initiating a D and I'm fairly sure the laws in Australia you can't D until legally separated at least 12 months.i will leave that in her hands.
I will know when the time is right to move on but for now I am happy finding myself. I'm as for as I have ever been I feel good physically and have been running and gyming heaps.
My W just doesn't get it yet. She invited me over for dinner again tomorrow all happy happy as if nothing has happened haha if you don't laugh you will cry she is so confused but I will be having a talk with her tomorrow about what she really WANTS and sit back and see what happens.
ME- 31 W-25 T-5 M-3 D2 ILYBNILWY and moved out - FEB16 W seeing someone else - JUL16
