What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[Surfer]

Coconut.

This is the most important bit in my mind:

"how do I keep the anger and hurt at bay?"

You don't keep anger at bay. Is a feeling. Just recognise it, but don't react to it.

"how do I keep hurt at bay?" Detach.

You have done it before. Focus. PROPERLY. No more dipping in and out. CT knows. RSG too. We have all done it. Mate. Detach.

Feel who YOU are - not this messed up person. That's not YOU.

Jog on. Slowly. Build the power.

Surfer.