I've kept very busy lately - the weekend was spent with girlfriends (all Saturday) and work (all Sunday), and on Monday morning, Son & I took off for a short vacation. We're spending a few days in a lovely scenic bay community to celebrate his birthday (a big one). There's tons to do and see, and we've spent all day out sightseeing and are just taking a break before dinner.
I'm struggling, though. It's a big day that we are not celebrating as a family. His stepsister was supposed to come visit for this, but WH's actions in relation to introducing OW has caused a rift in the family. We haven't heard from her for months.
It's my first vacation without H since we got M 15 years ago. It feels completely unnatural. I want to send him pictures and share things I see that have special meaning for us. Things he would be interested in. I know this is what we all experience and it will eventually become my new reality, but right now it just feels so wrong and unreal. Like a game of pretend. I keep waiting for someone to yell 'cut' and for life to return to normal.
I'm hiding this from my son so just wanted to share with people I know will understand.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
