It's all disappointing today. I feel like I need to regroup and reevaluate. Or maybe just wander a little longer. wink I don't know, wandering is foreign to me, you are right about it being uncomfortable. Not sure where to go from here.
Oh, yeah. So here's something I don't know if I mentioned to you awhile back. The first few years on this BB, I had (and still have) a circle of really awesome, kick ass women friends. We held each other accountable for transforming ourselves. We don't have to do that anymore... we just cheer each other on. But way back when, one of them coined this situation as "time to sit on the discomfort sofa". You know... the one that is lumpy, has no support and is just generally uncomfortable but you're stuck there because you don't have anywhere else to go?
The discomfort sofa is meant to be uncomfortable. Time to go inside and figure things out. It's a time out to evaluate and plan. And the moment you have one, you'll jump off that couch and things won't seem so desolate again. I can promise you that I've learned to embrace that damned sofa. It's my friend. But it's really not fun, and I don't relish finding myself needing it. You'd think at the age of 54 I'd not need it anymore, but that is less than truthful. I spent some time on it June and July this year. I'm sure a great deal of it was because my D22 had moved to MA and all of a sudden, it became clear that I needed a real plan. Not a filler plan or someone else's plan. MY plan.
So don't wander. Sit your ass on that sofa and figure it out. Don't get up and wander until you have a plan. Even if it's a daily plan. You can always come back to the lumpy sofa.
Hugs! Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
