I think I understand what you mean Mr. Bond. That will def be something I need to do in the future, but right now I think we both still need space to sort through things. W is still involved in A, I'm pretty certain she's using it to mask her own deficiencies in our M, because as of right now everything has been about my failings and her needs. I do love her Mr. Bond, and we don't really fight anymore. Maybe I could try to touch her when we're putting S in car, like touching her shoulder?
Today is my 3rd counseling session. I'm going to write down a few things to talk about, #1 being what does it mean when someone says "you might not care/be interested/want to know, etc BUT..." #2 I'm still attracted to W, but feel indifferent when I see her because of the lack of loving interactions #3 Talk about the things I'm working on, such as friendliness, listening, validation, etc #4 I'm kind of understanding what my W meant about "faking it" re being a family. It's what I felt when she wanted to submit a pic to S class, she mentioned in the past she felt like she was faking it.
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.