Oh...thanks so much for the updates Deb, Nik, KAW and Wiley...

It's great to have support from you all!!

I keep rehashing stuff from yesterday. H had also said something about "our cores, deep inside....that came together at the beginning of our R, are still there."
Hmmmm, that was a positive. He doesn't elaborate on this stuff....and I listened carefully (no pressing or interruptions...a 180 for me!!)

I just had a momentary "crazymaking" period about a half hour ago. I was paying bills, and saw that H took out cash from ATM on 4/14 at some PGA resort in Campalm Beach. That was the week he said he was going on a personal vac....and was very vague. I, again, never asked about it....where or with whom. Sounds like Florida. Both the kids asked me where their Dad went that week....but I told them to ask him...I didn't know. Just makes me think....of course....that he was there with OW. I really don't know one way or another....and am not going to find out. If one day he discloses that, well, then ok. I had to deep breath....say a few words of prayer...to get my head back straight. I KNOW I have to let that stuff go. Just wanted to rant here...get it out and let it GO!!

Not much else. Having a pleasant day, working, gardening, etc.

Oh yea, one more thing. Last Fri night my new MF from my Alpha group called and asked me to come over with he and his brother for wine/pizza and watch a movie. I did....it was fine.....tho I think this new MF is more interested in me, than I am him. He knows my exact sitch....but I will have to be clear that I am only looking for friendship, nothing more. He was not the guy I had that sense of chemistry with way back when. It was kind of weird to sense he was interested. (tho I'm not attracted to him). I will make that crystal clear the next time I see or talk to him.

Just had to tell you guys....

Mooka