Keeps getting worse, 180 not working

[Buxom]

Surfer and cherry, thanks for the messages.
Surfer, I was a mild drinker but know it could have quickly taken over in my life. I always had to watch it, alcoholic parents and all. WH started to Dr I k more heavily during A1 as a way of coping with his double life. He said it numbed the pain. Now after rehab 14 months ago he hasn't touched it. In proud of him and said so again last week. Tonight, he is angry too and he'd drink if he could but he won't. It did damage our M as he was a mean drunk and he avoided talking about issues by opting out of life for booze and the skanks. He's still not used to dealing with all the emotions without chemical numbing. Maybe the sexting does that now? When we got home I asked him if he was angry, he said frustrated and I asked what was creating the frustration. He flashed a get back and said, this is where u leave me alone. I said ok and walked off. He hollered after me, you wanted go zesty and I'm being go set. I said yes I did and I'm leaving you alone. I may be mind reading but we were all subdued in the car and I think he thot we weren't appreciative. Either that or he felt my angry silence, even tho I tried to get convo going with the kids .

Cherry,thanks for the pep talk. I will re-read the validation and detachment tonight and tomorrow. It was hard to walk away from him when he told me to leave him alone twenty mins ago, but it was the best thing. Five mins ago he told me good night gave me a quick kiss then asked about my plans for tomorrow morning. I plan to sleep in since I'm still very sore from the accident yesterday. The. Bruising is starting to show all down my left side. The helmet saved my head but the neck pain is still bad. Please let me know your take on the sexting I outlined earlier tonight. Thank you!!! Hope things are settling down for you. Thinking about you and hoping for peace for you and S and bump. Take care! Col