The Fight for Self II

[albac]

CT,

Glad to see you are in a much better place then yesterday. You are doing the best you can keep it up man.

Something you just said I think about a lot. The whole WANT and NEED thing.

The same as you I WANT my W I certainly don't need her. To be totally honest I am much better of in all aspects of my life other then what I want.

It just goes to show what you think is important is nothing when you have been taking what is truly important for granted.

I now have more money, more time, no stress about providing for my family. But I would trade it all in a second to go back to how it was.
This is one of my biggest indicators to me thinking my W is just done. She had taken a massive drop in standard of living to leave. Obviously I wouldn't want her just to stay because it's easy but the fact she is willing to put herself in a tiny unit over our family home and put herself into a hard place financially struggling week to week it kills me.

And your post about need reminded me of what my W said when she hit me with the bomb drop the night she left. She said "I don't NEED you anymore" never really thought much about it but in ever needed her I wanted her. For her to say that make me think she stayed around for quite a while because she felt she needed me.

Anyway not trying to hijack just thoughts about the whole want and need situation in most cases the truth is the WW needs the LBH and LBH doesn't need the WW. Yet here we are trying to get back the person who ripped out heart out and ate it for breakfast. Humans are strange.