What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

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Cnut. Sorry to hear it man. We do sound similar. I hit those peaks of anger and valleys of despair the same way.

The pain you feel is unfair. You have been wronged in a terrible way. This is why I feel like, once D has been decided upon, it's more than OK to have an anger session and let them have it. You've gotta get it out, and they deserve to hear how you feel.

Your love was real. If it wasn't, you wouldn't be so angry about what she's done. You can do this brother. You need to be the strength for your son. You can do that.

Hope that helped a little, just trying to pay you back for the great advice you've given me.