The Fight for Self II

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NC yesterday, other than the almost catastrophic encounter (while it would have damaged my son, which is why I left, it would have been interesting to see her face).

Incoming contact today:
an email from WW around 8 am, questions about s4 and weekend, as well as s4's kindergarten assessment happening today - ignored.

email around 9 am about scheduling s4 drop off's- ignored

Phone call at 930 - I took it. WW does not ask why I am not responding to emails anymore, now its like "I sent you a couple emails this morning. If you let me know about them when you have time." Me: "I am not in my office and the days is very busy, I will look when I get back, but right now I have to go" Done.

1000 - I Email reply to schedule just wrote "this works". WW responds with thank you and a meme about tacos. I do not reply.

1015 - I email reply to question about weekend and the assessment. I respond with "please let me know how the assessment goes". I include a picture taken of s4 and I yesterday at the beach (I had a stranger to take it as I have few non-selfie pics of s4 and I). Not usually recommended to share photos, but I wanted her to see I was at the beach where her and OM were and subtly make the statement that its my place for my son. WW replies right away says "great picture, you are really getting buff" (shirt was off in photo). I do not respond.

Phone call again at 1130 - I took it thinking it was about school. WW said two things about school, then wanted to talk, I listened for about 2 minutes, waited for break in her talking, then said I had to go. Then she began singing a song she likes. I gave a slight laugh which was genuine and said "OK, i do have to go"

Phone call 130 - tells me about the assessment. I responded to a few questions which required me to on s4's future, I asked a few where I needed clarification. WW was very cheery. She then brought up how broke she is - I said I had to go. I have no desire to hear about her finances.

Started the day angry, moved to apathy, now back in detached feeling. Did not really feel any emotion about the above while it was happening. I did laugh at the singing, but was caught off guard by how spontaneously odd it was. Wondered if by writing the above out loud if it would make me feel something so that was my motivation. Nope. Still detached, as if I were talking to a co-worker or something.