Learning, growing and believing....

[mleigh4]

This isn't coming easily. The pit in my stomach is literally painful. I remember feeling this when I finally let go of my first boyfriend after 8 years together. I fought it, tried everything and finally let go. I never looked back. It's an internal knowledge, a state of mind that shifts...

I let H know how I feel. I asked him all the questions above and let him know exactly what I would need, spelled out. The burden is no longer mine to carry.

I don't expect an answer, I don't expect him to do anything I need. I do expect silence and him being his friendly self as if nothing is different.

Although I feel pain, I also feel a weight lifted. I have tried everything I know and I have spelled out clearly where I stand and what I want and need. That part feels good. No more wondering if he knows how I feel, no more game playing, it's all on the table. I didn't think I could ever be able to do that so clearly and calmly. I am in a good place.

Thank you again for listening and Job, thank you so much for your support. You all mean the world to me!

Make it a great day
M