aughhhh I don't know what to feel or think. Getting overwhelmed and emotional really quickly.
W- got tickets to grad. are you wanting to go or not? M-do you want me there w- that wasn't the ? W- you don't even know if you want to be friends. This is your decision M- I would like to go if you want me to. I will respect your decision if you don want me there. W- ok its...blah blah I'll give you a ticket when I see you.
W threw the friends thing in my face. Doesn't make me feel good.
Just because we aren't friend doesn't mean I don't want what's best. Then I started thinking about how I was there helping her study, D and I gave up OUR time so she could study, I woke up with her at 4-5-6am to pack lunch, to get coffee, or just for company...anything to help her. I hate how this is turning out. I hate that it's even a question. I hate that I'm actually debating on not going. We (cus I always told her, we are both in nursing school not just her) put so much time and effort into this, in different ways yes, but damn. So much of me went into her going to school...our lives. everything. for it to be this..."business" conversations.
having a moment. will be ok, but right now I hate this.
