The Fight for Self II

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I can only say that this is not unusual, they go to places that they know, that they have happy memories of.
So she went to a place that her son also remembers.
Yes stay detached.
She is depressed and looking for happiness by going up lots of cheesless tunnels searching for it.
She will not find it in this search,
she is looking in all the wrong places.
You did not break her and can not fix her.
Continue to give her space.

Thanks everyone. Thanks Cadet. I lost my head yesterday. I am still shaking from it, for real, my hand are shaking and I barely slept. There is one thing I learned in this. Anger means I still feel something. After taking my s4 to daycare and while driving to work I asked myself "do I still want to be married to this person?" I answered yes and then asked myself why.

The why is that her and I understand where and what the other came from. We share a very similar struggle from very similar pain. We are a reflection in this way. We share the same life values and viewpoints. We have a very long history. We want similar life goals. We are opposite in ways that one is able to help the other through themselves. We know each other so very well. We are on the same page in terms of what we want our son to know about life and what to teach him. We were at one time a family.
I know confronting her w/ what happened yesterday will not change anything. I know she is hurting and this chump is a way for her to postpone thinking about her pain. I understand that she is not able to realize what she is doing to her child. I understand she is not able to fathom the anger in blood. I know I am strong enough to keep myself in check and to continue in my growth. Replay - I know why its called replay. What I have never read about replay though, it puts the patient spouse on a replay too.

Thanks again everyone.