I'm Back! Just got home about an hour ago. What a trip...what an adventure of the spirit. These kids (5-16 yr olds) have sooooo much love to share. They have been so rejected, so many times....not to mention seen more than probably many of us have seen in their short little lives....and yet so full of love. They have compassion and a way that tugged at my heartstrings. Really gotta admit, it put things in perspective for me, that's for sure. Was very tempted to bring a few home to live with me...but really knew better. Hard saying good-bye to those loving little spirits.
Can you tell, I had a great week?
Had some good bonding wtih the other women on the trip, too. 2 going through similiar R issues....one Dd and one soon to be Dd. Recommended this resource and we had long talks. That, too was so good for me.
Haven't heard from H, but he did stop by last Sun for a couple hours just before I left. We talked some....he said he is glad he is forcing himself on this search, and that this sep (tho he was uncertain at first), now he is sure it was the right decision....to help him face himself ...didn't know quite how to take that...so I just nodded and said "good>" I thought about saying, yes this has been good for me too....but it seemed like it would be a put on....not real. He always asks how I am doing. I respond....actually, am doing pretty well. I'm getting out a lot, keeping pretty busy, and feeling pretty strong with my independence. I had also copied H on an email that I sent my d....just catching her up on my weeks, etc. I was cheerful, sharing that I was socializing more, getting out to new restaurants with old and new friends, etc. Then I went on to share general "Mom stuff"....
H said he recieved the copy and appreciated it. We had agreed a while back to share all email/communication stuff with our kids, with each other. So...he will occaisionally hear about me...in general...through my d emails. I will have to think carefully....to add some upbeat, mysterious stuff.
