Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #2]

[ForGump]

Not so sure about deliberately adding mystery. That seems phony to me. Oh, but wait, I just posted something on your thread saying being phony (appearing like you've moved on) is OK! I guess being phony is second best to being genuinely OK.

I'm on an overnight trip to the beach w/ my S (D is on a different trip). I have taken my kids away from home on brief trips w/o my W, but this is the first time since D was initiated. Everything reminds me of coming here as a family. My S is having a great time, but it breaks my heart to think of what he doesn't fully realize is happening to our family. I feel like I should be angry at my W, but it just feels damn surreal, like I've stepped into an alternate universe. If I just picked up the phone and called her and gave her a full rundown of our day and ended it with "Love you, good night" it would just feel normal.