Albac - 7 months in. Life goes on.

[albac]

Surfer,

I'm not sure. I have swings when my mind is not occupied I start overthinking everything and missing my W.

I can't see the end to this story and i don't know what will happen. Day by day I am getting better I think and accepting the situation but I can see how some people are pushed to D for the sake of sanity. This feeling of HOPE from the crumbs my W gives me are just like a form of torture.

It is so hard to detach and move forward with my own life when there is still hope for a R with W. I really struggle to deal with how much I want her.

I think I hide my true feelings well from W and that's why she is trying to have so much contact because I appear as if I am doing fine and moving on but the truth is much different.

One day at a time for me.