Yep, he has been told by many people he has to take care of himself first.

I am trying hard to do no contact, but it is tough. Though a part of me is beating myself up for evening wanting to contact him after all he has done. I know I could do better, but I still love him so much. It kills me to think I have lost my best friend to illness, a MLC, or whatever this all is.

And it's been almost 5 months of this. I am contemplating a legal separation. I took my ring off about 2 weeks ago. He of course took his off almost immediately.