I just got locked out of my previous post. Would someone, (more clever than I am) please connect my last post. I am really lame at that stuff!!
Anyhow....just want to update you all on my councelling session. I met with Joann from Michele's office....she is WONDERFUL! I usually do the phone coaching thing, but today made the time to go out and meet with her.
She helped me keep focus on ME. I really feel good about how far I've come (for me, that is) and where I am going. Yes, who knows how this will all turn out with H, but I am DETERMINED to dig deep and give it all I've got. I feel our cores are aligned....that the real love we once shared is buried, deep...and was so real, that it still exists. I feel it, I do.
I've had dreams lately about us re-connecting and they are sooooo real. And, I have asked God to close those doors, if I'm on the wrong path....He hasn't yet.
Joann's advice mirrors Wiley's almost to a tee. Tho, she's not really into suggesting dating, per say. That is tricky waters....but "acting as if" and being mysterious about the possibility that I am dating...is good....in fact that's what she definately suggested. I told her about my MFs...and said if I spend time with them, it would be very clear that it is on the basis of "friendship"
She suggests, not answering the phone, let it go to VM a few times, not take the first date plan H might suggest....put him off a little....so he has to PURSUE a little harder. She gave me tons of credit for most of the dbing I've been doing, under the circumstances.
I think being busy, active, filling up my life, re-evaluating what "I want outta life" and being mysterious is where I am going. Not be too available..and of course not at all NEEDY.
Well, that's all for now. I am feeling strong inside, no matter how this works out....this MOOKA is on a roll and making each day better for herself, than before.
Thanks for reading this....and staying with my new post!
