6 Months since she said i dont love you (4)

[Natus]

In my mind, I have to ask the question if WW is willing to work things, would I choose that path or would I be strong enough to not go that route and be with someone else. Otherwise it is not fair to the other person right? (ie see uphills thread, dropped the new girl on a dime).

I have asked myself the same question over and over even before official separation. I just dont trust her to not to do this to me again. This wasnt a mistake. She did this when we first met, dated and now marriage. This is who she is. Its just taken me this long to see it. I honestly dont believe there is a way back even if she came banging on my door.

It is hard to not be with someone else, but you haven't even been separated for a month yet. I think it would be a band aide for you.

Thats a primary worry hence why i havnt pursued it. Especially since i like and respect the person.

What are you hoping to compete in? I think I missed that.

I did some amateur kickbox and mma. Not a friendly sport for the aging.

I like the expression you used......"powered through". Easy enough to understand the application to physical exercise. I think it is a good term in explaining how a LBS needs to be proactive in helping himself to survive the devasting fallout of the WW.

You are sounding a lot better, Natus.

Thanks Sandi. I guess im more focused on "powering through" and trying to build a life for me and my s5 without the W. Still hurts but the M is no longer taking up my headspace.