I'm so sorry you are feeling so badly. It [censored]. I'm incredibly proud of you and glad that you called a crisis center and that you recognize that help is a good idea. I want to encourage you to follow through with it -- YOU are WORTH it!
I was in such a terrible place when I came to this board in 2001 -- it literally saved my life. And figuratively as well, because I gained skills that helped me to have a great life, with other people (including my kids). and with myself. I'm forever grateful.
The support here on the board is wonderful. Most importantly is the immediate self care you can get for yourself. Focusing on you is a very good thing. As much as possible, think of you and not him.
We will leave the light on for you here.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
