Buxom - I hate to say it - your questions may be worth investing in some professional help. This may be going way beyond the capabilities of a free online forum.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
