I GAL every other Friday night w/ some people from work. We go to a brew pub. I would like to do it more often, but try my best not to expose myself to too much alcohol these days, could easily take me to a bad spot emotionally.

Anyway, this guy I take to the gym w/ me is aware my spouse and I are separated, but I never told him why the S happened and he never asked - which is cool as sht of him. He will ask sometimes how I am holding up sometimes and last night he asked how her and I were talking these days. Told him about me being DIM, told him how that led to her telling me I was business like w/ her (he was w/ me in the gym, so he knew I took a call from her), told him about NC on Wed, etc. I was just relaying since he asked, not looking for advice.

Him not knowing she is in an A may have changed what he said to me or not, I don't know. He said "hey brother, I don't want to offend you, but have you ever considered that she is trying to reach out to you? The tings you told me she did and the way she spoke to you, she is clearly reaching out and you are clearly shutting that down. Is that what you want to be doing?" I just responded by saying "If her and I did not have a son, if her and I did not have such a long history, I would have been gone long ago and we would not even be discussing this. And I know from past experience that if I had done that, she would have come back w/in a brief period of time. But we do have a son, we do have shared debts to settle, we do have a long history. So I am doing the best I can to mimic being gone, w/out being able to be gone." Then some more people showed up and we dropped it before I could hear his response.

Got up this morning, had my hair cut, went and bought a couple shirts, spoke to some strangers along the way. Now trying to decide what to eat for lunch, which is really breakfast. Not sure about you all, but the initial loss of appetite when all the sht went down has stuck around. My pants fit better though.

Get my son tonight and all day tomorrow, will be great.

"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies.
BD: Feb '16
D: Mar '17
Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing.
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