Albac broken but pushing forward

[albac]

CT thanks for stopping by as always,

I definitely appreciate everything Sandi does for this board and this is the first time I have asked for an opinion. As always everyone's time is there own and I don't expect replies from anyone but appreciate them all.

The last post I wrote was from an emotional place it was straight after she left my house and everything was raw. I need to give things time to settle as now I feel much the same as I did the last 4 days which was fine.

The NC is helping a lot I feel my better not being around her as I don't get emotional. You are also on the money with not being a LBS. I am a man living my own life and moving forward if she doesn't want to be on the train that's her call and I would rather her be gone now then hang around and pretend we are in love and have an A behind my back. As much as I try to understand and rationalize everything, she does not love me right now and I don't want someone that does not love me. Every time I stop thinking about the hurt she has caused ME and I just think about how I felt before she left and where our marriage was going I realize she had some major issues of her own that need sorting out and only she can do that.

I need to leave her to experience her life away from me and see where she ends up and I will do the same, but as you say the future can be just as bright if not brighter!

Thanks again CT