Look Forward & Ignore the Anger Spew

[rich4j]

thanks Trumpet for checking in. Hope your path you are leading down is getting better as it sounds like you made a big step forward with the anger piece

Anger was boiling up when I was having to buy tons of things for the house. And she can just live life as if. I did have an interaction with her for our first hand off of our daughter which won't happen much in the future as we have it worked out where I will take /get her from school and not deal with her

It was weird. She was crying as she walked away so Daughter didn't see it. I felt nothing for stbx crying...it was very strange. I was sad for my daughter but just kind of "indifferent" to her emotions. Seems like a phase in this process

I was contacted via Fbook by one of her best friends husband. I didn't accept his invite as I suspect there is some reason for him reaching out to me. I don't want to know anything from him or that he is sad for me or any info at alll. I really like the dude as a friend but can't go there. No reason to open up any other doors as I am shutting down what I can.

Its great to have D7 with me for a few days. She doesn't care the house is in tatters...Did say can we go back to our other house to sleep? I had to explain what and why not...it hurt a bit but she will get used to it. I know she wants us back together as she asked if I will move back at any time and I said no but I will do whatever I can to keep above this and in her presence show the smile and not be angry/bitter. Its what needs to be done

Being honest I do miss her (stbx) but not sure what parts/pieces I am missing anymore. I don't know if its "her" or "my wife/family" if that makes sense.