Journal... saw IC yesterday and cried more than ever. Thru it all. Realized that I am still living for and thru him. He was the love of my life and I never thot that would change and yet it has changed. I've changed too and not for the best parts of me. So this week I have to take better care of me, and figure out how I will live despite loss and chaos.
Tonight is the concert. WH spoke of our going today in an upbeat manner. Then our couple friends wanted to join us and he was happy like I was. I said we would all 've together the AA friends and all. He said good idea, I had almost expected him to want to separate the group's but this way maybe all will be happy and will definitely make it better and easier for me. When the plan changed I made sure we spoke on the phone and heard the responses. Wish me luck tonight!
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again
