Albac broken but pushing forward

[albac]

Thanks Sandi,

I appreciate your input and I believe what you are saying is correct.

I have seen more action since I started standing up to W in the last week. She is phoning me all the time trying to FaceTime me, for my D2 of course just funny how how she hasn't cared for the last 6 months about FaceTime and all of a sudden it's about D2 wants to talk to me.

She called last night I hadn't spoken to her for 2 days not sure why I answered I probably shouldn't have but I had been solid NC for 2 days and ignored a lot of calls. First thing she said was wow you are hard to get hold of. I just said I was very busy and what did she want basically she was happy didn't ask anything about where I had been or what I was doing. She did her normal 10 minute run down of how busy she is and tired and how D2 won't sleep I just listened and validated. She then asked if she could come and drop something off to me today I said I will probably be out just leave it at the door. She also asked me to go to the park with her and my D2 but always throws it back with a I don't care just thought you might want to.

Jruss- I understand what you are saying but I don't see if as a trick we use to control a child. I am not playing I'm not pretending my W walked out and is with someone else I do not want to spend time as a family if we are not one. It's no game and the longer this goes on the less and less I miss the person she is right now.

I no longer wang my W back at any cost I want my W to realize she has destroyed our family and want to come back but that also means I have to be ok with it if she is truly happy and doesn't want to come back. I am not wasting what's left of my life on someone who does not care about me.