Thanks Cristy, I'll ensure I pick this up when I get back from my holiday.

Well Blu & Gump, you will be very proud of me today!

I went to the gym whilst H picked D up and was hoping to be out when he dropped her off but it was getting late and I had a huge amount to do at home. Anyway knowing him I assumed he would do a drive-by drop off as he has done in the past. But no! Annoyingly he decided to come to the house with D and when I opened the door I did a suprise 'oh hello'. He followed D in and I think he expected me to ask him to stay for a cup of tea or something but I just stood by the open door whilst I asked D if she had a good day waiting for him to leave. I think he got the message and wished us both a lovely holiday. He then gave D a hug and then He gave me an awkward kiss which he initiated when he was leaving.

Last week I would have been offering him tea, coffee, dinner, dessert, anything to keep him there but today after the 2x4s this morning I feel a bit more empowered! He even asked if we needed him to get the suitcases down from the loft but I informed that my BL had already got them down for us. Too late! I am so fortunate that I have four BL's to help me!

D went to look at his new flat and he confirmed that he had the lease for twelve months but that he could leave anytime he liked so not to worry. WTF! Anyway I keep remembering not to believe 100% of what he says at the moment! Phew!


Me - 47
H - 45
D-16
M - 6 years
Separated - May 16

Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')