Oh no. I know you already knew what you did wrong here. And the consequences.
Your wife saying "ok" is how she learned to deal with the outbursts. But I am sure you already know that.
I know you are not happy with your actions. I have been feeling your resentment.
You seemed to think you were coming close to your goal, aside from your outburst, but you said you had an outburst because you thought it was never going to happen.
now, in a calmer state, which is it? Was it a possibility, even if not on your timeline, or do you really think it was never going to happen.
I told you what getting angry regarding the sex thing and mentioning not getting it return for other things was not the way to go about this. That is what will push her further and not make it something pleasurable. Honestly, if you want to move out, maybe you should. If you want to save this, there is a whole whole lot of work you are going to have to do.
When wanting to discuss a sensitive topic, it could only be done sensitively. I felt this could have been discussed in a loving moment,in a loving way, instead of letting the resentment build up.
You can't remember what you said because it's a blind rage. What are you doing about controlling blind rages? Are you getting help for this issue?
