I couldn't do half of what you do. You have been in-house sep since mid 2016. I was in-house for 5 months and being around her everyday i couldn't detach at all, it kept me attracted and desiring her, hoping and mind reading even though i was going dim and GAL.

Have you detached?

Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs
23Mar16-BD
9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss.
27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM.
14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation.
24May17-Divorced.