New here and separated

[Coly23]

Thank you Doodler. You've given me an idea! H has got a punch bag in the garage which I might get out and have a go at to get some of my emotions out! I'm only 5' 1 and teeny weeny since my H left so I'm probably going to look ridiculous punching that bag!!!

I did a few bits and pieces today but I'm not doing very well with my GAL activities. I seem to have done a 180 on myself! Whereas before I was learning to play the guitar and going to the gym three times a week I now can't face any of it. When it first happend I tried to keep myself busy and carried on going to the gym but my anxiety was so high I thought I would have a heart attack whilst on the treadmill!

I just don't want to go through this anymore. It's just all too painful to know he is carrying on without me. I so desperately want to contact him and say ' I'm still here, remember me I am still your wife!!' I have been so close to doing it so many times today but I kept telling myself that if he really wanted to reach out to me he would have by now! However it hasn't been really a long time since I have gone totally dark so maybe I need to give it some time....