Even though she can't see it and thinks we can be best friends. I can see it and I know that when either she or I move on with new partners they will not accept a friendship and more to the point like you said who wants to be friends with someone that can put you through all those things.
I am very conflicted at the moment these last few days I can't even truthfully answer the question of do I want my W back, I just don't know anymore. I don't trust my thoughts I analyze everything and normally one minute I'm sure it's one way the next minute I'm sure it's the other.
One thing I do know is every time I'm feeling down now and feel bad for going NC I remind myself she has chosen to fire me as H and see another man. Then I feel fine again for cutting contact.
She has also started to pull back a little by more. No phone calls or messages today but at least 10 snap chats and not all of my D2. I'm going to continue down this track for a while and see what happens.
Hope everyone is doing well. Stay strong.
ME- 31 W-25 T-5 M-3 D2 ILYBNILWY and moved out - FEB16 W seeing someone else - JUL16
