Grateful for d18 and her wisdom. She is a calming force in the storm that I am currently navigating. Grateful for d5. The sweetest little spirit that always brings oy, happiness and smile into any room she enters. Grateful for God. For his higher power that has a higher calling in store for me, if only I can get through this fog and see the path. Faith. Grateful that I have faith that I can get through this nightmare.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
-I'm grateful for feelings of anger towards my W for abandoning me -I'm grateful for numb feelings of resignation -I'm grateful for constant anxiety attacks
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16
-I'm grateful for feelings of anger towards my W for abandoning me -I'm grateful for numb feelings of resignation -I'm grateful for constant anxiety attacks
I'm grateful for MWD who has given us this forum for us to share our joys and pain with each other that lightens the load.
Be strong qt4x11 - to quote the ancient philosopher Red Green "I'm pullin' for you. We're all in this together".
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
I understand the nightmare all too well. Your last post sounds like me. Im angry and frustrated. I also have wonderful kids who are the only reason im still breathing. And the anxiety attacks! oh my good lord. I have been going through this for a long time and I am not feeling any better. Something is missing in me that I don't think will ever return.
Just know that you are not alone. I don't know how long the nightmare will last but I pray constantly for some sort of relief.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
I saw your D was final in 2012. How are you now? How did the financial situation work out for you? How was the D for your D 19 (I'm assuming she was still in the house with you guys as you were going through the D)? How are you emotionally? How long until the pain ends. I'm in so much pain. Everything is painful - even business like text messages about parenting schedules is agony for me. I have to exercise self control to avoid all non pursuing behaviors every time we have any sort of contact. (I'd really appreciate your experience and advice - but maybe you can post this to my thread if you can to avoid cluttering up SH's thread?)
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16
I am grateful for my hiking-friend with whom I took a nice walk in the woods while sharing our knowledge of the local flora and fauna. It's really great to be able to share that with someone who, if anything, is even more enthusiastic about the subject than I am!
I am grateful for honesty.
I am grateful for the continued support of family and friends as this process continues on and on and on. Seven months in and there is no end in sight...
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16
Grateful for a new day. Grateful for the opportunity to get in a daily early morning jog and feel the pain, shortness of breath and this brutal heat as it reminds me I am alive and that I can endure challenges and get stronger as I feel the pain. Grateful that d18 is having such a good and fun week. So many fears she is conquering, joy she is feeling, pride she has and she has met some new friends.
So my gratitude is the example she has become for me.....or as the saying goes, The teacher has become the student.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
-my mom made korean barbecue tonight -90 days sobriety. I don't have to go to 12 step meetings multiple times a day anymore, although I'll probably go a couple times a week now -have been watching some good videos about acceptance by Deepak Chopra
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16
